and it won

she was torn apart but to others she seemed well composed as always.
life was tough it indeed took some sharp turns, but what just happened wasn't expected.
long ago some one was killed by her to prevent that grief to occur, but a new part has to be killed now. the earlier one could be tamed and defeated, but this, this is a strong one. it's endurance is difficult to suppress. earlier she fought with a second personality but this time it was some one similar to her , very much like her, her alter ego. hard to convince, to over come . it had to win. this time it wasn't to be killed, a part of hers was to be brutally murdered. a grave to be dug within her where it would be buried without any incineration or commiseration. no law would know about this crime, no one would lament, those shrills would go unheard but she'll have to die 'cause it can't be won over. it's obstinance nay ! can't be held. she has to die

aah!! she's killed, her own hands cuffed her throat and crushes those feelings out of her.
it had to won, it was her alter ego.