loving bitches n bastards-5

she didn't got to the college next day.spent her day sitting in her room going through his book in her hand and his memories in her head. weeping is what she did the whole day. every other second she checked her cellphone, with a hope to see his text. her heart was dying to receive a call from him. he was the only one who could soothe her , calm her down, but he wasn't there. 
he didn't call nor did he text. she was all alone, she had lost her friend, her LOVE. 
things seemed so complicated , she knew he loved her then why didn't he confess???
she was all messed up in her head, where was he when she  needed her the most.


on the other hand he didn't call her because he couldn't see her crying and he was so helpless as he couldn't console her either, he was stuck in a dilemma of whether he should call her and give a hope to her feelings( which was wrong as he never felt anything for her, what all he did was just a friendly gesture from his side) or should he leave her alone , let her struggle with her feelings and fight back her tears , he chose to go for the latter one.


she didn't feel like eating, didn't feel like doing anything , the only thing she wanted was him to be by her side,


i wanted you to be my side
why you kept your feelings under hide
in middle of the road you left me
my heart, you theft it
on seeing you leaving
i was all grieving
I've cried my eyes out
thinking your feelings were just bout
why you had to this ?
mere presence of yours was a bliss
i loved you, i loved you like anything
you were , you are my world and everything


she was shattered, she was broken, all of a sudden she had lost everything she possessed, she had lost her friend, she had lost her love, she had lost the reason for going to the college, she had lost all hopes, hope to love, hope to smile, hope to be happy, hope  to live
her feelings were meeting a grim end so was her life. going back in flashback, walking through her memory lanes back and forth and checking where did she go wrong, wasn't her feelings strong enough to convince him, or wasn't she sharing a bond warm enough to make him feel how badly she was in love with him, how badly she needed him. she had no idea what to do, was that an end to her friendship??
was that an end to her feelings?? what will she do now?????